MOOD: Bad Flare Blues
Hello lovelies, for the last 2 weeks I've been experiencing a horrible Crohn's Disease flare up. I thought I was going into remission, and after tapering off prednisone and budesonide, it's like I have gone backwards in progression. I had to go to the hospital earlier this week because I was dehydrated and in serious pain. My lower abdomen is on fire and it hurts to walk. Safe to say I'm not in the greatest mood right now. It is discouraging to have a bad flare, but I am trying my best to stay positive. I call this time of annoyance with my body the "bad flare blues." It has a good ring to it, I think. It captures how I feel: down in the dumps, in bed and not happy about it. Luckily, my doctor has prescribed me tramadol for times like this and it's taking the edge off.
However the bad flare blues are not going to keep me down. I strive to live a happy and positive life for my mental and physical health. Negative vibes and thoughts only create worse mental health which effects physical health. A few ways I've been trying to keep happiness include cuddling with my puppy, online shopping, and watching shitty paranormal shows. Yes, paranormal shows do really make me happy (the crappy acting and semi convincing evidence just get me). Everyone has different ways to cope and for me, distractions is how I continue on a positive path. Is it the healthiest way to cope? I'm not sure. But does it work for me? Oh, yes it does.
I get Remicade tomorrow and a new regime to get me back to my "normal." I will update you all on that after my appointment tomorrow (or whenever I wake up from remicade.)